So lately I have been realy bummed and it’s driving me insane. When I quit smoking pot and drinking, it will be 4 months June 14th, I thought that I was done with being down. I wouldn’t say that I am depressed, just confused, I have all this energy, for the most part, but at the same time, I lack all motivation. When I was smoking all the time, I was very nervous and anxious, scared to be in public even, I knew that it would take a while to get back to normal, but I honestly did not think that t would take this long. I need a hobby or something…I also need to not work as much as I do. I work 6 days a week and 2 of those das I work 14 hours.I am also having a bit of a dilemma with my current work situation. My sister helped me get this job and it has the potential to pay well and I get a lot of benefits. I am worried about all the toxins I am exposing myself to(I work in a paint store and on the labels of the tint canisters there are warning labels about cancer and 4 girls that have worked there in the past have had misscarriages.eeeeek)
I don’t know what to do, I really liked the job at first and now it is just like any oher job I have had, I hate it. I hate being so inconsistent.It is really starting to take a toll on me, especially all the food preperation. I feel like I am alone, I don’t have any raw friends or know of how to go about meeting them.
Sorry if this is a jumbled rant or not the right place for it but I am so confused and everyone has been so helpful with all my other questions and concerns.
are you getting enough EFAs? would you consider herbs for treatment?
mmmorgans – I feel for you, but you’re not alone. From what I’ve read here, most of us don’t have raw friends in our daily lives but it doesn’t mean you won’t inspire the friends you already have. Don’t let the preparation overwhelm you. Just take it a day at a time. Stay in touch here and do the best you can. There’s no failure, you’re already conscious of your health and what you’re putting inside you, that’s a huge step. The work does sound very concerning. The hours alone, but especially in a place that you believe is affecting your health. My husband has had some recent insights into paint toxins and it is a little scary. If you’re worrying about it that’s added stress on your system. Maybe making that change will kick everything else into gear. I’m confused much of the time too, it’s that big brain we’ve been blessed or cursed with.
bitt-I eat plenty of EFA’s and am more than open to herbs and other natural treatments, I have an appt with my family doctor tomorrow and he is awesome about alternative remedies:)
amysue-Thanks for the kind words, it helps to know that I am not alone, as most of the time it can feel that way…I think it is time for me to make a change as far as work goes and that will be one less thing to stress about
When you smoked pot and drank you were numbing yourself. Smoking weed/drinking really supresses and masks negative emotions. Now that you are not masking your emotions with these things, your emotions are raw and coming right at you.
Also eating cooked food numbs emotions so again, when you’re raw these difficult emotions come up and hit you right in the head.
You have to learn how to deal with your raw emotions. Maybe for the first time in your life if you have smoked/drank from an early age.
There is a good e book by Angela Stokes called Raw Emotions available from her website www.rawreform.com Also Philip McClusky did a talk in London and it is posted on the front page of www.welikeitraw.com it is 2 1/2 hours long but in there somewhere is him talking about his personal experiences and tools for dealing with emotions.
Personally I “self medicated” from the age of about 12 with a variety of things. So when I went raw and quite everything, I went to a ‘person centered’ counsellor for about 3 months during my transition. She helped me to navigate my way through the bombardment of emotions that came on when I went raw. She was amazing, she held my hand and helped me feel safe throughout a very tricky emotional detox. Now I am through it my life is incredible. I am the person I always wanted to be and never thought I could be with out some kind of crutch.
I now know that if I feel something negative I have to accept it, breathe into it, feel and acknowledge what I feel, talk about it or write about it in my diary, and then it goes. It is time to stop supressing emotions, shoving them away and wishing they weren’t there, it just makes it worse. Let it come up, face it head on, get some help via books, therapists, or journalling.
And of course we are all here for you to vent with/share with ;) In time everything will calm down and fow better. It is just a bit of a shock when all the safety blankets are gone :0
About the job, I know your sister helped you get it and the money is great but is it worth it? If you have to work for someone else, to help them get richer, please don’t die doing it!!! I think it is criminal that you have to work long hours in such a toxic environment, aren’t there any workers unions in the USA to protect you and make sure you get proper hours and work in a safe environment? I run 2 businesses, I wouldn’t be able to look myself in the eye every day if I were putting my employees in such danger and exploiting them this way.
If I were you I’d quit and find something that supports you much better. Who knows, there may be a much better job sitting there for the taking if you quit this one and look for something else.
Anyways…I know it’s tough especially when everyone is freaking out about recessions etc.
Wishing you lots of happiness,
Love &Peas, Zoe.
old wisdom passed on: Find something that you love doing and learn how to earn money from it.
Also: Working may not be for you at all. Many never consider this option, but you don’t have to have a job. Fro example there are many health retreat type places that offer free room and board in exchange for just a little work. I have taken advantage of one or two of these type programs and it was some of the happiest times of my life.
Hang in there, yet take action. And keep coming back with your story, we are interested.